havent blogged in years! i should take effort to blog more often. then stuff wouldnt get stuck in my brain all day long.

its 3.08am now and im not asleep yet. i dont wanna sleep cause i didnt get to enjoy much of my holidays so i shouldnt waste my free time sleeping. and also because i probably cant sleep cause im feeling too sad.

this holiday has been really lousy cause i have school from tuesday to saturday. and i havent touched my homework yet so i need to do all by today, which is already sunday. thinking about that makes me crazy, plus im really super sad right now.

hc strings camp was okay, but i think i tore my ankle apart like lego bricks. i sprained it a week ago and i was happily running about in the camp. like chasing someone and trying to pour water on him during water bombs. on the uneven ground. now my ankle is like dropping off. hahaha. i hope it doesnt. very disgusting. it certainly feels that it will drop off soon. other than that the camp was quite fun. heh.

the 10000 people gala dinner thingy was so big. really got 1000 tables at our school field. so funny lor. we had to perform at the dinner and being the string orchestra, we were super soft. cause we are REFINED musicians unlike the lousy chinese orchestra and band. hahahaha. i hope noone from chinese orchestra and band is reading this. but the food was quite okay! maybe not too good but still okay. i was running around having fun and hurting my ankle even more. yucks. and there was damn alot of food cause some people werent at our table then got empty seats (: so i ate like a mega pig and drank alot also.

when i reached home it was already close to 12. what a perfectly tiring holiday.

i think i am a person who needs alot of encouragement. especially true in recent days. or weeks. or months. but im not getting any encouragement. especially from people whom i love the most. im getting really tired. maybe one day i will faint and i will never wake up again. hahaha okay what rubbish. that would be nice. i think. or maybe not.

hmm i shall stop being nonsensical and try to sleep. although i probably cant. bye!